There are times when we miss the mark in life. It happens to the best of us. We get off course or make choices that we never thought would distract us or pull us in a direction we didn't anticipate going. That's how I felt this week as I sang the words, "Jesus at the center of it all, from beginning to the end, it will always be, it's always been You Jesus..." That's the moment I realized it. When I awake, He is no longer my first thought. I've been much too distracted with work and my daily tasks. I also realized I no longer make Him my top priority. I regularly sacrifice congregating with other believers to receive an inspired word at church to travel, chill at home, or any other random thing that comes up. It took one song to remind me what is most important to me. It was the duration of one song that revealed how much I miss my quiet time of study in the early morning when no one is awake. I missed sneaking downstairs with my bible, concordance, and notebook to see what God wanted to teach me. I was still studying and reading but not with the posture of fostering my relationship with Christ. I missed never missing a church service and feeling stronger with each new teaching. I was still regularly attending church but my heart posture wasn't always fully present. Some days I stayed in and watched via technology versus making the trip to be there in person. Most of all, I missed my life centering on the One who gave everything for me. I used to do everything with a God-first heart posture. Everything in my life had to take second-place to my relationship with God and my spiritual well-being. Now I was lukewarm at best. It was time to re-prioritize.
My mind was made up. I was ready to rededicate and I knew exactly who I wanted to pray with me. My covenant friend came by that night & I asked her if she remembered the rededication prayer she learned in ministry school and if she'd pray for me. She eagerly agreed and I rededicated my life in the upstairs loft at home. It was important to me that someone who knew me personally and deeply and who interacted with me on a daily basis knew I wanted to rededicate and the reasons why. I no longer wanted to walk as though I had Christ in my life. I want to walk in truth, Christ is my life. The song is so true, "From beginning to the end, it will always be, it's always been You Jesus." He is truly the center of it all.
I don't know if you feel like you're missing a mark somewhere in your own life but I want to encourage you, today is always a great day to get back on course.